
I often wonder if I am a woman that loves too much...too hard. It seems that in all of my relationships, it is natural for me to give 150% of my heart and soul. I don't think I know any other way to love.
I am in a relationship with the most amazing man that has ever been in my life and I adore him immensely. He tells me all the time "You are such a wonderful, amazing woman, babe." Sometimes, though.. I wonder if my depth of love and adoration if a bit abnormal. I view my man as my world (with the exception of my children). I hate being away from him and can't wait to see him again when we have been apart - even if just for work, school, etc. I believe a good man - a REAL man deserves high respect and reverence and submissiveness from his lady. Now... let's not get that twisted. I don't mean be a welcome mat or allow anyone to mistreat me.
I find pleasure in making sure he is happy and taken care of. I even pray for him more than myself. I am careful of my words and tone of voice to him. I am mindful of him in all that I do, even the way I carry myself when I am not in his presence. I guess the thing that scares me a little is that I honestly feel like I would crumble without him if anything ever happened to him. Until him, all the men that have been in my life have been pain to me, in one way or another. He is the first man I have felt safe with....completely. He is everything to me. Best friend, lover, teacher, side-kick, counselor, and at times even like a father. I call him Daddy because of all the things he is to me.
Is it too much?? At times I wish I could just breathe him in and hold him inside. He truly is "all of my reasons".........
its not too much, if you truly are in love! .. its the only way!!
ReplyDeleteas it should be!!! Embrace it and take it all in. Hold it close and get power from it. Relax...this was meant to be. Love ya!
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